Plan Zee

Dear Best Friend, I think you deserve the world, yet somehow I don't think you always see that. But I want you to know, I often find my own self wondering what I did to deserve you. You taught me what a soulmate really is, and i wouldn't be able to survive without having you in my life. You come in to people's lives with a purpose and you change them. You make every single person around you better, without even realising it. Because you'll hold them while they cry. You'll make them laugh even when they're sad and you'll forgive them for what they said when they are mad. You believe in them even when they don't believe in themselves. You're there for them even when they haven't always been there for you. And you care for them before you even care for yourself. You get to know them down their very core, even when they're hard to get to know. You go to war for the people that you love, and do it without even thinking. Love isn...

I have come to terms that you might be leaving. I also have accepted the fact that people can drift a part to opposite sides of thinking , even after expressing emotions, thoughts, that sounded like and tasted and felt completely real. I have now understood what it means when they say "If you truly love someone, you have to let them go." I guess letting go is part of the process, that sometimes we give our hearts to people and end up empty. And you have to support and watch that person from a far as you still wish them success and happiness. And at the same time, you have to move on. And somehow, in the end, we're going to be okay....eventually whilst we still find our footing. We still learn, and accept both the lesson that we did not realize we needed to, and the blessings that comes in finding our way out. " Be patient. Sometimes you have to go through the worst to get the best" And so, I may cry. Who am I kidding. I will cry. But, I'm going to ...

It was that one night that has been repeating itself over and over and over again for the past month or two. She has lost count of the days, and track of time. She is drowning in the darkness of those endless nights.  It was that one night where it felt like the world is crumbling down on her heart and soul, crushing her life into pieces. Leaving her without any exits or escape routs.  It was that one night where all the demons were out, chasing her into, what seemed like a dead end, not to her misery, but to her life. It was that one night where she saw it again, the dark soulless corner in her mind, the one she has left years ago hoping to never meet again, the corner that she always ran to in time of need, the corner that she felt most comfortable in, the corner that's now covered in spider webs.  It was that one night where she was tired and fed up of all the endless loops, leading back to where she ran from in the first place....